Once upon a time there lived a little girl named Masha. She loved her parents very much, but all her childhood she was watching their complicated and traumatizing relationship. Masha knew and felt what love between a child and a parent was like, but she didn’t know what love and peace between dad and mom, between the two most important people on earth, looked like and felt like. Her biggest dream since childhood was to create a family of her own. Another one where dad and mom love each other and love their kids. A family where everyone is safe and happy.
Time passed. Her parents divorced and dad started another family. Masha and her dad didn’t get in touch for many years. Growing up, the girl Masha looked at the boys and shunned them. She didn’t know how to communicate, how to respond when they were paying attention to her. When for the first time in her life she felt her first childhood love and attraction to the boy Misha, she was very frightened. “What am I? What’s wrong with me?” It flashed inside. “No. No. You can’t. Don’t“.
Already being a young girl, Masha tried to be inconspicuous to guys and could only interact with them as friends. The older she got, the more guys paid attention to her, the more the dream from her childhood – a loving family – began to resound. “But how? With whom? Is it possible?”
By the time she was 30, Masha realized that all that was possible for her was short-term contact with men. Relationships didn’t work out and went downhill very quickly. All she could “build” was a friendship or a short-term love affair. At some moment she stopped looking that direction at all. A relationship with a man began to sound like an impossibility and a total disappointment. The childhood dream about love and family became a utopia. How to create something that doesn’t exist? It never was. It will never be. You can’t…
At 32, Masha gave birth to a daughter. She wanted a baby, but she wasn’t ready to be nearby a man. So, when she heard his refuse to be together and be a family, she wasn’t surprised. She didn’t want a man, a husband, because she didn’t understand what to do with him or how to build a healthy relationship.
The daughter was growing up and the inner pain was getting more intense. Fear that someday the moment would come, and the daughter would ask: «Mommy, where’s my daddy? Who is he? Why isn’t he with us?» kept Masha on her toes.
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One day she heard about a new, unusual way of working with yourself, which helped people to solve various difficult issues in life. She got curious and started looking for information about it. Later, looked for a specialist who can work with the most painful request. « Why not? I should try it? It won’t be worse anyway».
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The inquiry for the first session was about my daughter’s father, his leaving, and my inability to create a cool relationship with a man in my life. The result of this work was amazing – what had been hurting for years, the frustration, the fear that had been there, all gone. For the first time in years, Masha felt peaceful. It’s like a big corn on your foot, causing constant discomfort and pain. You get used to living with it, you adapt, you somehow wear shoes and walk with it, but you can’t remove it or change it. And then you find a specialist to remove it. Your corn has gone. You can run, wear different shoes, feel free and don’t hide your foot. You can just live your life differently.
After the first session and the next three, the changes that Masha saw and felt, she wanted to learn how to do sessions to herself. It was time to master GSR Module 1.
I have been practicing GSR Module 1 for 3.5 years now, I do regular sessions to myself. For all this time, many life changes have occurred in my life:
- I quit the job and started to work for myself.
- I mastered new majors and succeeded in them.
- My income in freelance has increased from 0 to 100k roubles only within the first year.
- My twenty-year allergy for blossoming each spring has gone.
- I gave birth to my son in a natural way after my first C-section.
- I reset relationship with my dad. We haven’t talked for 10 years, and I thought I won’t start it.
The most important and valuable change with GSR Module 1 is a relationship with my husband and my big family. It became possible only because of my regular work with myself. That doesn’t mean we’re not stormy. It’s very stormy at times. We’re going through complicated processes in our relationship. In those 3 years, we have twice come close to possibly divorcing and ending the relationship. To break-up. Every time we go through this because we can change what triggers the desire to interrupt, to quit, to separate. Every time, I work with myself, and my husband works with himself. Thus, a transformation happens and a new opportunity to be together appears. We are changing. We are improving our relations.
I absolutely and honestly realize that if I didn’t have GSR Module 1 and the ability to work with myself so deeply, our relationship would have ended. It would probably never have happened at all. To change what is given, to make it better, to make it possible – that is the real value of the tool for me. That’s GSR Module 1 is with me every day. In any situation. Any context of my life!
