Scene One
The body is trembling. I feel bad. It looks like my heart is going to jump out from my chest. I am tightly clasping the armrest of the airline seat until it hurts, trying to breath normally. We are taking off and there is no way out, neither of the plain nor of… the body…
Scene Two
It’s raining heavily outside my window. I love rain, it makes me calm. But not now, now I feel like hell. I think I am dying. I am shaking again and there is a rapid heartbeat. I want to scream as it’s too scary to die…
Scene Three
I am lying on a tile and pressing hard my chest and stomach to the cold floor to relieve the fever and tremors and ease another bout coming. Two days ago, I gave birth to my wonderful son and instead of feeling happy I am agonizing in maternity hospital’s WC. Such an irony…
It’s not thriller shots and even not a drama. Just life, just panic attacks. When the body betrays becoming a trap for your mind on the background of stress and you are periodically falling into hell.
It was impossible to get used to this. Just to bite the bullet almost dying.
Each year, it got worse.
Sometimes, I dreaded to think what would happen to me in old age and, at this rate,
if this ‘old age’ would come in my case.
Nothing really helped. Or it helped temporarily. However, always there was a vegetable-state option to be on antidepressants, with all the consequences.
And here I am with a successful life, loving family, good career perspectives, interesting traveling… Just enjoy. But, as they say, something went wrong.
It’s quite clear what do to when you are struggling with something or someone: fight or flight. But what you are going to do when YOU are the enemy? How to struggle with yourself? Who to fight with and run away from? There is no escape, it’s a vicious circle.
But I didn’t give up. Who seeks will always find.
And a miracle happened… I found 1 Module GSR (an author method of Dmitry Ustinov) that is an amazing tool for inner states and feelings transformation. It allowed to remove panic attacks from my life! I’d say I’ve re-written my own history, I’ve re-written… myself.
I’ve just re-read the previous paragraph and smiled. Sounds like an ad. I’d reply as one famous blogger: «Yes, it’s an ad, but I am not paid for it». As for me, who was ready to meet an old age in a room with soft white walls, it’s more than a miracle. It’s a new life: an ability to create the impossible fixing my family system bugs and live in resource.
People want a magic pill. So, it’s not about that. As it has been already said, 1 Module GSR is a transformation tool, and using it makes you start realizing that the responsibility for your life is all on you. And when you really understand and accept it GSR reveals your incredible internal potential, and your life is changing in a way you build it.
It’s an art, a skill which you need to learn, but which each of us can master. Just a motivation matter.
And what about magic pills? It’s an illusion that is like antidepressants. And when you are getting off them later you find yourself in the same hole from which you tried to get out, if not deeper.
I am using 1 Module GSR every day and there is a ton of changes! The miracle for me has become something ordinary. But each time looking back and comparing my A and B points I realize what a precious treasure I possess building my own destiny and changing others’ lives for better…
P.S. And panic attacks? They are gone. The only thing that can unbalance me is a thought that GSR might not have happened in my life.
