Any problem can be solved. Any goal can be achieved.
This is a motto of GSR and the whole system of study. (Dmitry Ustinov)
GSR entered my life in August 2020, when I was in Brittany. I remember this day. My beloved husband and me, we were on holidays, settled for a few days in a French medieval castle transformed in a hotel for French tourists and townspeople eager to escape from the urban landscapes of Paris. We were in a good place. The weather was not that good. If you know Britanny, you will understand immediately what I mean.
It was rainy and dank, we tried to keep each other walm, as we always tried, and I had a terrible feeling that I attemted everything in my life to feel better but did not succeed…
I just wanted to be happy, to be free of pain or necessity to run for something that I would not be able to get. I still did not know what I wanted. Maybe, peace. I had a good job, a man who I loved and who loved me, my career as a writer finally started a few years ago and did not even achieve its pick. Everything was as in a dream. If someone told me when I was a kid that my life would be like this, I would say “yes, I want it immediately!” However, at that moment, I was not satisfied at all. I felt like I always was to run for a meaning of my life which was not achievable. Everytime when you get something, this is not the point that you wanted. We, people, are like this.
Moreover, it was a hard year for all of us when everything we had, our lives, were smashed by the Covid 19 crisis. The entire world was agonizing, and I was agonizing with it. However, this inner pain started yearlier, maybe when I was born or even before. My gelstat therapist who I was meeting for one and a half year told me that my main protection against the real life was to deny its pain. Yes, I suffered, but I was not even able to meet this feeling face to face and accept it.
Bref, as French people keep saying, I was not that much myself.
So, I was in a big quiet room in an old French castle in the middle of nothingness. I had a big pain in my back and huge pain in my heart. It was so huge that I can merely move. I had this pain from time to time, probably because I used to work too much or was not satisfied with my life. Psychosomatics, as they say. But nothing, neither doctors nor yoga helped me to get rid off it. Pain in my back, pain in my heart… Sounds like a very old song on a TV set.
I thought of GSR. I read about it in articles of my old acquantance from Russia, Olga Lobareva, who practiced GSR almost from its beginning and was one of the major specialists using this method in work with other people. I remembered that somehow she wrote about someone from her clients who got rid off its back pain and even more after just one GSR session.
So, at that moment, I decided finaly to go for it! I was not yet ready to go to a GSR specialist. I was ashamed to go to someone with my problems. So I decided to help myself, and I purchased the First Module of GSR. This course was dedicated to those who wanted to use GSR techniques for themselves, on their own. I did it! My first step to a new life. My first step to GSR!
In a couple of rainy days I read all the courses, watched all training videos and did all excercices. Just by watching how Dmitry Ustinov, the author of the method, is doing a GSR session, I felt like feeling better.
However, after the vacation, I came back to Paris and tried to forget about the First Module. It sounds weird, however after all these efforts of studying, I did not want to believe that it might really help. In psychology, they call it resistance. So, I spent two others months in struggling against my desire to practice GSR. I don’t even know, why. But when we find something that can really help us, we are doing everything to escape it.
Only by the end of October, I finally did my first GSR session. And, you know what? After two weeks of practicing GSR (a dozen of sessions), I suddenly noticed that I did not have my back pain any more. And I got rid off other little or big things in my consciousness that ruined my life for years. I became much calmer, open to myself and to new feelings. I was amazed by these results and inspired to continue. Just after a couple of GSR sessions, I had much more progress in my well being than after a year with my gelstat therapist. And he tried hard to help me! But GSR was much more effective.
I thought that I was quite gifted in doing GSR sessions. It was like it always was there, this wonderful tool that is with you in your pocket, helping to work with all kind of painful inner states that prevent you from happiness.
So, my wonderful journey with GSR started!
But that’s not all!
… To be continued.
