Old lady was sitting at a table in a street cafe and watching through the crowd. Her eyes initially were dark brown but now they’ve faded. Her life has also faded. Everything stayed in the past. All she had to do is only to survive to the end. However, she could be free from rush, just sitting and sipping tea and looking at the people who were running towards their illusion goals. Being sincere, some of them were running from themselves.
In my 40’s I am jealous to this old lady. At least she has a support – walking stick with a knob made of polished stone. But my world has collapsed and it was not possible to restore it.
Life plan has been fulfilled. Education is behind, two degrees, prestigious specialty, family, position, apartment, and even the mortgage is paid off, a car, two children, one failed marriage… Well, it happens! But all the checkboxes on the task of life have been ticked off. Now – live and enjoy: from the outside – a flourishing, free, successful woman!
But inside it sounds: there is no way forward. Fade away, baby… And there is so much pain in the soul that it’s impossible to breathe. Not a bad set. And what about the children? The children were left with their dad and themselves. Mom worked from dawn till dusk. It’s amazing how her husband endured the exhausted, empty woman for so many years… The son started to skip school, the daughter was doing fine, and the mom had the syndrome of an overachiever… Fear and shame, helplessness overwhelmed me so much that every night I woke up in panic, with a racing heart, and couldn’t fall asleep… days became gray and hopeless. I just couldn’t live like this anymore. I felt that soon my body would start saving me, triggering an irreversible process of illness.
And then I was advised to try a session of the Self-Development Superior System. “Yoga, meditation, lucid dreaming, I’ve tried it all. So it can’t get worse!” – I decided. Without really understanding what this method was, I rushed towards the opportunity to get rid of the pain. After talking to me for a while, the kind girl-specialist started walking on the sheets on the floor and telling me about my feelings towards my son, fears, expectations… it was unclear. “Observe your son, something will change,” – said the specialist as we said goodbye. And it happened. Our relationship became different. My son’s behavior changed. Or maybe it was me who changed, and my son just reflected it?
Soon I learned that I could do sessions for myself, for that you need the 1 module of GSR – Self-Development Superior System. I bought an online course, completed it in a couple of days, and learned how to write down my complex states on a sheet of paper and remove them. By myself! At home! Buying the course once at a very moderate price! By the way, now access to the course is provided for a lifetime.
And then a completely different life began… It’s like enduring the collapse in a fragile boat, and then finding a cabin, a helm, and navigation instruments in it. Yes, water is still pouring through the holes, but here is a repair kit… you can patch the holes. I definitely don’t intend to drown! Sessions using the GSR method have become an integral part of my life. How can I refuse the opportunity to change my state, and consequently, the entire reality? The method impressed me so much that I left my job as a lawyer and became a GSR specialist. I am happy every day. Once I was happy continuously for five days!
And now my inner old lady walks in beautiful places of the world in the company of a tanned old man. She no longer needs a cane, so it supports a ficus tree in their cozy home.
And I’m not rushing to retire and fade away.
